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Tuesday, June 28, 2005

[[Tok about being perfect.....]]

A passion some say is something you will always have aka forte. But when it doesnt coincide with your dreams...ur torn.. totally torn in between.

Say a dream is to be a businesswoman, thats vertical thinking.Thats Practical, logical, matured. Say, a passion, an artist, designer, even a poet. Why not?one must say. But to me, What can i sae... a dream is a dream to acomplished. But a passion is a love to be turned into a hobby. Simply, i can afford to waste it all away though apart of me aches at the transformation. But could i afford to let things down again..NO idont, time is running out. One of them is in NJC the other one is in SP. But where do i land myself into? ITE...im fine....its just the stereotyping thats killing me. Look at the vast difference...could i even be compared to them? Let alone stand side by side.

A lot to be proved wrong. Too many sins comited. But just so little time left. ITS hard to even swalow my pride still harder to speak about a failure.

But still, my mere conceptions are wrong I KNOW. Its just something i have to live with. Honestly i wouldnt be able to make it without my bee. Hez been there, he was there, and now look at him, standing taller than ever. Still, nobody could be perfect. nope, not even the NJC kid or that down to earth Sp dude...Let alone this ITE girl.

If it isnt a good thing fer me, in the ferst place i wouldnt even be here. Thats a smile rite there... i could smile again... Still not enough to put my head up. Too much to be undone. No, im not hoping to turn back time. Because no matter how much desperation i have. I have sworn to myself that i will only live for tomorrow.

No more looking back, crying at how things could have been. Cuz, shez rite, some how... Everything happens for a reason. THis is probably the best for me. Someone has got to put up with the stereotype. I do. Ive never regretted anything outta this. Neither will i in the future, COz im a gerl, and for the obvious reasons. A girl just have got to have pride,honour, etiquette, sensibility, sensitivity and wit to cut off idiots.

I could be that, all of that, but will that make me whole? NOpe. it wouldnt. but i noe god is fair. Coz even if i don have what theyve got. I noe its Vice versa for them. HEY... nobodys perfect..

NOT that NJC kid or even that down to earth SP dude... NO one.

Im just saying this to make myself feel better....its amazing though at how factual what ive said have become.

-Paradoxical-

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|9:32 PM|

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

[[LONG..LONG TIME..]]

Its been like forever....since i last blogged..and the last time i didnt even wanna sae anithin...
-end-

Oready the 21st of june..yeap. started school yesterdae...got some cool classmates and the blur ones..well..i juz gotta blend in. what ive always been doing aniwae...well, kinda missed skool todae.. it was orientation n stuff, i wasnt into it..besides..i wldnt stand the heat wit muh 'migraine' heard it was fun n stuff..oso i dued my option form, that was important..

It was fun hearin from ain bout the diff kinds of cca theyre getting.. i wont have time fer any of it...i got muh os and i aint wasting money no more.. i really gotta do it... im kinda psyched fer it aniwae. well, ite life is kinda fun. You just gotta learn to noe ur priorities. well, i noe mine..and im not letting me waste it.

Tot that wen u dn go to skool nobody cares...haha..i was rong.. had my teacer kolled me up a few hrs ago regarding 'reprimandation'....and he kolled back agn...regarding reporting at 8 am.. means waking up like at 6?? haiz..okok...positive outlook.. 6 am? cool, im on it.

"IM NOT OK...." sorry, cldnt help it.. listening to my chemical romance.. n theyre kinda like my flavour of the month and many months to come! so is dashboard confessional.. :)

OUH..Me and bee gotten into a tiff n i cldnt help it..i cldnt scream at him..so i screamed at him VIA Msn... We met up and made up..we always do. and i love him fer making that possible.
-END-

Had a haircut!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arghh..missing my long hair oready....haha. Watever for!!
I love my hair! !

Heard over the radio bout this blog competition.. i wonder how it werks? not like that i care...but just curious..NOPE! my blog's not fer public viewing!

Skools in fer mie...and i just gotta live it up, pick it up, and pull up muh sock

IF theres One thing i gotta hate bout ITE....its definitely the skool song... the person who rote that song has lost his or her credibility....ok, nowonder theyre doing lyrics fer a skool song. Hekz! IF i were to say, the skool song is such a cliche, oh wadd da hell am i saying, All skool songs are cliches!
-Pradoxical-

ITS HARD TO SAY THAT I WAS RONG, ITS HARD TO SAE I MISS YOU, SINCE UVE BEEN GONE, ITS NOT THE SAME..
-The Used, its hard to sae-

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:03 PM|

Friday, June 03, 2005

[[WAts the werst that i can sae....]]

I don feel like saying anything about todae..its just dat...i m in regret, confusion and hate.
-Paradoxical-

Whats the werst that i can sae,
Things are better if i stay,
so long and goodnyte,
so long not goodnyte.

If You carry on this wae,
Things are better if i stay,
So long and goodnyte,
So long and goodnyte.
-
-My chemical Romance-
-helena-

Coz u channeled all ur pain,
And i cant help you fix urself,
and ur making me insane,
All i can sae is..
-
-Papa roach-
-Scars-

Coz im broken,
when im open,
and i don feel like i am strong enough..
-
-amy lee n seether-
-broken-

No i must be dreaming,
Its only on my mind,
not real life,
no i must be dreaming.
-
-evanessence-
-i must be dreaming-

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|10:26 PM|

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