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Saturday, August 13, 2005

[[For you..i'll grit my teeth..and sae its okae...]]

I waited...almost pissed.... i was having second thoughts bout doing this...i was thinking..its my first time. wont it be weird? i was crying tomyself...why? why?..den..i saw two identical people walking towards me..and at that moment i knew.. there was no turning back..i had too....i had to do this...for us..to avoid being called the tyrant in this relationship.. So baby, For you..i'll grit my teeth and sae its okae..

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We had a decent meal before makin our way to the gig...i saw many people... in different code dressings...i was trying to figure out where do i belong among the blacks? im wearing black too.. den i realised... i am just on my own..wit my bee...though his so near..i still, somehow, felt alone. On our wae there, we walked through back alley, quiet places...the haunted Capitol... i was glad it was Broad daylight and im with 5 other man in blacks too.... okay..well, theyre a band.. and i oh so happen to be the drummer's girlfren...Huakzz...honestly..i don really get th fits bout him being a drummer.

so back to me.... wen we reached... i wasnt all excited and grinning wen we were buying the tix...i was kinda scanning thru among the crowd..desperately, hoping to see a familiar face.. but unfortunately..not gonna happen very soon. So i was 'choped'( i mean as in with this stamp thingie dat dey use in da banks fer ur thumbprints if u haddin gotta signature yet..) invisibly, on the top left wrist... and followed bee into this pitch black sorta studio like kinda room... so i showed the door people the wrist where they 'choped' me at..they shone it with dis UV light thing..and der it was.... i went like...ouhhh...cool...one thing im liking bout this gig oready.. DATs pathetic i noe..but its cool u noe! Anywae... i so refuse to let go of bee wen were der..i mean its not dat i wanna show off....but oh well, he is the drummer... haha..okok...I was in a strange land... and da metalheads in here are so way outta my league... fer a music lover...i havent really got the chance to appreciate wat theyre aleready in love with..so i thought as the malay proverb goes..'tak kenal maka tak cinta'.. so I figured...why not?.......while biting my nails... I went futher into the darkness amidst the unbearable loud noise...den i was struck with a sudden realisation...its da music..dats played at 1 million decibels in my head!! not noise...!!

okae..so that was my first impression of my first metal gig.. wanna noe more..wait up fer my next entry.. soon...will i write more...and bout this thirdholocaust idiot..ill share with you..soon..

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