[[*PARADOXICATED*]]

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

[[I Miss you...Really.]]

A friend, a pillar of strength, the one i bare all to, the one that will always do.

-end-

I woke up and realised im in a different land, no, i didnt ask to be here but somehow...i feel safe.. im not scared...not the least bit afraid.

So, u make me feel good bout myself, but so what? i have someone hu'll love me till the end. I never thought that you could be or would be... hmm..can you? I donnoe, never gave you a chance. But you always change my life, A little or in a way you always leave stains on me, strange enough i could never get them off maybe, i just dont want to be off.

I missed you, really i do. i promise you that ill never stop, ill never stop till i find out the real me.

-Paradoxical-

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|12:00 PM|

Friday, January 13, 2006

[[my senses........my wha?]]

I hate myself.....just bcoz i don want to hate others..
-paradoxical-

FUCK YOU!!!

Thats exactly how im feeling rite now-FUCK OFF!

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|7:03 PM|

Sunday, January 08, 2006

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She would live a day, just by looking in his eyes, kiss him on the forhead and tell him, hez the most beautiful baby that anyone could ever have.
-Paradoxical-

Shes feeling so odd, she cant help but think to herself, will he always be around for her. He wont, he'll grow and probably won't remember you at all. I know thats a risk i will have to take...but i will always, always love you. Eventhough, the day would come when you wont event remember that i was the one who hugged you tight when you were scared and ran to the kitchen back and forth just so you would stop crying, carry you in my arms eventhough you weight 10 thousand times heavier than yesterday.

IF i could be so attached to you...i wonder what your mother would ever do without you...

When you sleep, you look like an angel, and when you wake ur the sunshine of our hearts. With your laughter...itll just make anyone's day.. With that shine in your eyes...and the scream of eagerness..you never fail to put a smile on my face.
You know ur loved..and we will always let you see that. Becoz we will alwayz let you c dat ur our baby...i love you...

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|12:15 AM|

Saturday, January 07, 2006

[[HEARTACHE,HEARTBROKEN]]

I am byfar, the unhappiest person ever lived todae...i dont care if its unfair or sellfish.
-Paradoxical-

I spent 1/4 of the dae sleeping, another quarter babysitting and the other quarter fixing my educational path. But i just don understand why...! .... i HATE MYSELF.. What is wrong of wanting a change in what i want. what is wrong in wanting to do things differently..i so do not have to go by the traditional way of going thru 3 years to get my DIP. I JUST CANT UNDERSTAND why... I have to go the LONG ROUTE while EVERYONE ELSE! and i mean everyone else AROUND ME! Doesnt have to!! i still hate myself. Just because im a little stupidier than everyone else dosnt mean i have to go thru what other people like me went thru.
-end-

She closed her eyes and tried to breathe, She choked and felt a tear drop to her finger. She tried to smile, but her eyes just wouldnt lie. She cried and cried but her ego just wont budge. Shez dying to prove, what ever man can do, a woman can do it better... She felt ridiculed by the thought but was strong enough to pick up her pride. She will learn not to take anyone's orders anymore...a tinge of guilt appeared and her conscience was a stir. She breathed in again..and tried to smile, she cried so hard that it broke her heart. Shez just a paradoxicated little girl inside. She looked up again, and believed, that she can do anything...anything.
-end-
-PARADOXICAL-

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:55 PM|

[[*The Fading Soul*]]

Name: PARADOX
Bdae: MARCH 87,22
Nicks: nahh..
Skool: College Central BIshan
Contact: fareshah@hotmail.com
Status: ATTACHED

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