[[*PARADOXICATED*]]

Sunday, April 30, 2006

[[Wont sae nothin..]]

I didnt sae i hate you...hu saed soo? u assumed didnt ya? wow..ur gettin betta at this..
-paradoxical-

Look, dudette.....i didnt sae i hate you..nor do i..you noe at times...wen u noe how much someone you care juz hogs on somethin' for too long...u thinkin' oooohhh give it up...she aint gonna care.. but he didnt, he still hogs up on it hes still hoping, wishin...upon nothing...it just gets bad on you. But den one dae, hez all smiley...n happy...exhilarated n evrything cool in the world u go like..she do care after alll.... well, the happiest day of my life. you noe dat feelin gerl? get the idea? im sure u do..

Alryte, i apologise fer callin you an insecured lil' ************ i dont even noe wad it stands for...i was juz hopin it looked bad..well, definitely it did n ur mad...well, i didnt mean to hurt you...i was just angry..disappointed to an extent....my dude(tot)...his actually a simple guy...n god..he listens to you... so wads the problem...Some messagin' thing? Gerl...u gotta see beyond that...well, prolly he lied to you? maebe u think u deserve better than this...but did you gave it a chance?

look chika...wads the real deal here...im sure theres more than juz this messagin thin' wit dat other gerl... waddup... cmon'..fill me in..

BUT THOUGH I SAID HE'S MOVED ON...if you really noe him..then only you wil noe...

patience is virtue...n so was his... he deserved better..

-paradoxical-
-paradoxica-l

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|5:44 PM|

[[If i COuld sae what i wanna sae.. i'd sae...]]

Guess im wishin my life away...with these things i'll never sae...
-PaRadOXiCal-

These few daes had been a pretty interestin' journey..well, to an extent kinda childish..but...hey, it aint' anithin' concernin' me...so ..WTF~

Tot, keep it up..don lie to urself..u don wan dat kinda chika..besides one of ur gd friend's tryin to hit on her so... Let it all go..... DON BE oblivious bout it..i noe u noe wat i noe...

Caught nano tryin on a bike...hahahkkz..da bike was freakily..tooo high fer her..yet shez still like i don care n i want it...oh well..nano...nano..be happy babe..

Bee had a last minute gig todae...haiiizz..tooo laz minute..cant go. do well mon..luvvie..

Me n mum kinda bondin like we never did could..we used to hate each other's guts back then but as things got worst fer a reason...we got better wit each other..dad..oh well..our dna matches n the blood type's da same....but the love is der..

Chaakkkkiiirrrr!!!!!!!!! HE learnt to wave......he put his hands to his front n started rotatin' his wrist...hes such an adorable babyyy....he went nuts over muh mumz sewin machin..n went divin fer the floor twice this week wit me n mom bein juz on time b4 his head went inches b4 da floor.. scaryy....but his cute...cant stand it...but i sooooo looovveee himmm..MUaXKCZZZ..!

Me n tot almost went bezerk tokkin bout all the things dat happened.....well..atleast hez movin on...livin it as usual...n fergettin dat unsecured lil' *************** watevr it is... i sure see his gettin better at the drums..heyeyyyy.....go do it properly n as gd or even better than zal aite....
-end-

Why the hell you gotta make things so complicated..u sure missed me like a HOLE in da head!!!
-paradoxical-

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|2:25 PM|

Sunday, April 23, 2006

[[Why'd u had to burn him like dat...BIATCH....]]

I havent seen him smile till he known of ur existence...
i've seen his determination died...since you left..
-Paradox-

I WAs almost dead beat wen i got home...i wnt in to muh broz room, tot everything was cool n he was sleepin as usual...So i jz went like ...'aakkkmmaalll'... n left.

He asked if mom n dad was home so i checked n nope, theyre not, informed him n asked him where'd dey went? he said in a sobbin' voice 'gi makan'..i was shocked..is dat muh bro crying?? so i persisted on him......but he just wont budge..he wont sae anythin...isnt muh bro juz weird....he just went like ' kluar lah non bsok amal nak skolah'.... but i think i could almost guessed wad happened...THOUGH...i shall not jump to conclusion...

well, all i can sae my bro...this isnt the first time, ur more matured now...eventhough as ur sis i feel a need to protect you...but i shall be rational n leave u ur space.....eventhough she loves you...but not as much as i love you...as we all do...ur not at a loosin end...be strong...this is only a phase that all teenagers must experience.

It hurts me to c u cry,
but i noe u'll make it tru,
eventhough it hurts a thousand times,
it isnt worth a single dime,
Not a single hate, not a single regret
though it is all
a little too late.

TOT.....dont cry....it hurts...but itll past...i promise...trust me, ive been burn...Hey if it helps...uve got ME..! N ur line comin...TC...

-Paradoxical-

I ve asked myself, what will i do wen the only person hu can make me stop crying is the one hu makes me cry...

Now, its ur turn...what'll u do?

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:35 PM|

Saturday, April 08, 2006

[[I WISH..I WISH..I WISH..I MIGHT....]]

A Wish is incomplete without a dream..and a dream is incomplete without a desire...
-Paradoxical-

I Wish....i had the best Lappy....but i dont.
-end-

Is it good wishing fer things? i mean is it healthy? does it bring any good to you...or does it bring any bad C-O-N-S-E-Q-U-E-N-C-E-S.... yeap...thats the word...
Lets see....you wished...you desired...you dream....you worked fer it....you still dont have it..the ultimate outcome of that is youre gonna land yourself down with a heavy thump from the 25 TH FLOOR!!!...I sae...isnt it a good thing...well...not working... so fuck wit that dream.

The good thing is that...youre able to visualise....plan ahead....and S-T-R-A-T-E-R-G-I-S-E..YEAP..THATS THE WORD... your ass through your dream..just to find out that its a Drift at the end of the road!!! Well, im awfullly Pessimistic tonyte...prolly from all the lack of sleep and seriously shortage of cash....HMPH.....

-END-

-PaRaDoxIcAl-

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|12:33 AM|

Sunday, April 02, 2006

[[WELL YOU HAD A BAD DAE...]]

I juz knew...n im sorry....you guys were a role model..
-paradoxical-

Its juz sad..im so sad...t dampened my spirits to express my thoughts...it juz..gets worst...first was dan n liza now its kak cda n yan....YYYY!!!! my frenz....it hurts..wen im happy...n you guys are falling...ill fall too with you...
Ill always love you guys...wit or without each other....

-Paradoxical-

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|11:07 PM|

[[*The Fading Soul*]]

Name: PARADOX
Bdae: MARCH 87,22
Nicks: nahh..
Skool: College Central BIshan
Contact: fareshah@hotmail.com
Status: ATTACHED

[[*My Adores*]]

Food: SR CAKES
Drinks: Apple Juice
Pastimes: Blogging, Werkin, Shoppin, WINDOW Shop, Spend Money, Movies
People: MUMMY DADDY TOT BRO SIS SHAAKIR BB

[[*My Detests*]]

People: PATHTETIC DESPERATE PPL
Things: ......
Food: .......

[[*Music's Playing*]]

//visit Iwebmusic for music

[[*My Past Memories*]]

[[*The Conversations*]]

[[*My Friends*]]

[[*Credits*]]