[[*PARADOXICATED*]]

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

[[Im in your heart tonite....]]

Hi...Juz droppin by to sae..ur beautiful..

-Paradoxical-

You noe something bout life...yeah..we all think we know..but actually...i feel that there is more that life can offer to you than you think. Who noes wad the dark and mysterious side of life can show u..u'll have the time of your life.

Life doesnt give you the fulfilment that you should have..in fact..its the opposite..u give ur live the fulfilment it should get.. its up to you to make ur life worth it..

When i was younger..ard 14 or 15...i had an older brother whom i tot was getting it all fer him..he has evrything and anything.. well, i was of coz having the middle child syndrome..my younger bro..was getting to live his way as well, all he had to do was moan n groan...sulk fer a few daes and he got it..wadever he wanted..n i was..left out..without anything..or so i thought..

At that point i decided that i should get anything that i want by myself...i learnt to be independant..i wasnt well liked by some...but i had my own personality..but generally..im nice:)

I lived my life by the rules that was set fer me...twisting and bending some of it at my own expence..and learnt abit of manipulation techniques. To survive on my own i mean socially..i was depending on friends and outsiders.. to set a role model for me..it was up to me to choose..it was all in my hands.

At that point of time, i wasnt all thick wit my mom at all.. it was easy to make her an enemy at that time..and all she had to do was complained to my elder bro...my bro wouldnt do anything bout it...it wasnt her..it was me..i just couldnt stand it wen my mom alwaez tokz bout my bro..telling me to be all that i don wanna..and do all that i cant..n i found myself to be way out of her league... but i knew she cared n meant well...but i just didnt care...it was pride or ego...i dont know..perhaps both.....maybe i was an egoistic lil' brat.

So things happened .... things had to change...i was more matured..and i realised that all that happened..happened fer a reason...it was a time fer me to learn from all of it.. i learnt to be sincere, and truthful..love and feel for my loved ones..

The jealousy is gone..the ego lingering...the pride...stays..unfortunately...but thats me...

-welcome to my life-

-paradoxical-

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|12:18 PM|

Friday, May 05, 2006

[[YAAAWWNNZZZZ....Borrriingnggg.....]]

Ouuhhh.. BORRIINNGG....DAEEE...

OH WELL..2 MORE YEARS BABY..2 MORE YEARS..

-PARADOXICAL-

'TOGGLE THE OVR ON....YOU ARE IN THE INSERT MODE....MEANIG DAT WORDS THAT YOU TYPE WILL BE TAKEN UP ....1 TO 1 EXCHANGE...OVR STANDS FOR OVERWRIGHT'

BAAHHHHH....YAHWWWAANNNNZZZZ...Boring sia my OA lesseon..stuck wit this one teacher whoze so full of himself..bahh!

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I was blog hoppin..from T'z to Tot to Tique..and i was just getting soo..pathetic..haizz...IM so keen on doing my work but now im stuck here..learning some bad ass tricks thats well like kinda useless...but he soooo claim fer it to be usefull..haiizz..

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Nano got the job..haha..now all 3 of us are werkin under one roof...well..yest i went down to forum..saw all my peeps..a few was okie..some were well..funny...but heyy..wth..hehez..

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I love my life...i love my life too....n i mean it from da bottom of my freakin' heart!

-paradoxical-

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|8:55 AM|

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