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I wish i could remember the the times when i felt real bliss n happiness in my life. As life goes on..it juz gets more complicated...n it lets down a part of me slowly die..every single day... can we work it out? can i werk myself out?...
n now.....Not even i can answer that...
Not even anything.......
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Baybeats was on its wae...i was on its doorstep..i wouldnt leave without knocking,or a peep...so i snuck out...n took a little peep too many..
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Im gonna go enroll fer my license...its horrible havin to take da train or bus to school!!! aarrghh~~
have to get it!!aarhhg
Tired..really tiredd....REALLy TIRED.........
PROJECT...GEEZ...
A/C...GEEZ...
LIFE....WEEZ....GEEZ..
WERK.....GEEZZZZZ...
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lIFE'S A paradox u noe...its like a...like a...
like me..
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atleast my life is.
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It felt weird at first...scary...a little..but it was great....totally different like wen u're sitting in car quietly..tuning on the music..n oblivious to ur surroundings.. for the first time...i felt i was moving...hahah...
The first ride from forum to centrepoint was weird..hahha..fer all the obvious reasons..it was wit wee n ...i didnt even noe where to hold him..so i just hold him by the shoulder n figured it was ok rite??Thanks to my straight thinking..i got labelled a 'malaysian' THANKZ ALOOTT!!..how was i supposed to know...it was my first time..
The bike was ok.....an RXZ..kinda small but it was a fun ride.....THANKZ WEE WEE!!!!!
The next ride was from centrepoint to home...OMG!!!OMG!!!that was great...haha.first it was on a slightly bigger bike..an SP....n it wasnt weird...only a little scary coz the one manouvering the bike was a PETiTE little gerl...WAD WAS I to think..but i did not under estimate her abilities....
The ride felt smoother...we were zoming across the road an in between stationary cars.....HAHHA!! i donnoe why but even as i am typing..I could still feel the vibration of the bike...hahahizz..IT WAS COOL.... my first experience.......Im in love wit it...i love it...
BB don be pressured into getting a bike..im not forcing you...coz ive got nano n wee wee!!! hahha!!!haizz...i love you guys....i juz love you guys ALOOT!!!!!
Thankz fer that once in a lifetime experience......i'll remember it forever.......i love you guys.
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I am going to make the biggest confession about myself....u might not expect it from me..
-This is me-
I used to be once a very fullfilling person.I appreciate evrything thats good in my life..i was willing to forgive..though not always forget....i admit it im only human...I was happy and contented with my way of life...It was there..up there..yes i was happy...Very happy...
Then i fell in love...
My first love, at such a tender age...it didnt mean anything...it was him n me..it was us..he showed it all to me..the true meaning of love..the care that love brings..you....i will never forget...
But you left...
n didnt showed me anything..no signs, no clues, no warnings..you went..n let me fell. I dragged along on you..hoping and wishing u'd come back...u didnt and all i could do was cry..n i promised myself..you were my last cry.
Everything had to move...things had to go on...i learned fro all my downfalls...it was that stage i learned to open up..n be accepted..i was changing...evolving to someone i knew i could never be...but i did..but its hidden..no one noes...but myself.n god..
My Social Peak...
I was 17 going on 18...i changed ..hell yeah i did..no biggie..afterall.ppl change...i was me yet i wasn't. i dont noe how to put it..but that was it...my social circle was expanded...i lived my life with ful of carelessness.i didnt mind it so long as i enjoyed it.....
My first Hard Crush...
You..yeah..u noe hu u are...i tot i loved u...u tot u loved me..we tot wrong...u were there fer me at the right time..n so was i..we were coincidental lovers...We never expected anything to happen..it was an opposite attraction...so strong..not even i can put you down..not even you...and everyone knew..all saw in disbelief...but we didnt care....Afterall, we were more then just frenz..yet not lovers....
Once again..you left......i was devastated...i didnt noe why.but i know that just one day ill get through it....it was todae..3rd July 2006...2 years later....but noe dear..i hadnt laughed at us back then i just smiled n tot it was beautiful...it was..i swear..
i'll continue......
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It is officially da HOLZ.....im plannin to werk...n werk..hmm..werk ...n werkk..erm did i mention werk? yeah..n werk...
haiz..welcome to my life.
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Fatt's bdae juz passed..happy 19..blahh.!
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Its time like this is wen u miss everyone else..frenz...ur enemies ur classromm..ur teachers...ur mates..ur idiotic noisy peeps....plus those irritatin petty ones...hekz...For all the good things in life that u take fer granted...its regretted wen ur all alone..trying to be a grown up.wen u noe ur not gettin any younger but then u don wanna be old...n you juz gotta live wit it..put ur mind to it..bear wit it...be it.Is tt a good or a bad thing...i think i'll let it ponder fer now..
All this tyme.lookin fer the perfect fren...or perfect sumone..made me realise..life is pretty weird
wen ur lookin noone's der..but wen ur not..everyone comes..its mad..u think ur able to grasp ur fate..but u noe its not up to u..circumstances leads to consequences..n blahhh...arrghh!!
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